[Written summer of 2023]
We’re almost at two years with our current foster placement, and this is our longest placement ever besides the sibling group we adopted in 2018. Our last hearing was early June and it’s still completely up in the air what will happen. We are still cheering for parents, still supporting, still on the reunification train.
I hardly ever think ahead; it’s just not worth it. But there’s a very good chance that there is one day in our future that will simultaneously be a “best day” and a “worst day.”
If little man goes home with birth parents, it will be the best day of their lives (no exaggeration). And while our family will be heart broken (truly a worst day) and there will be much to process and to grieve with our forever five, it will also be the best day because all that we have worked for and prayed for on the parents’ behalf will be coming true.
On the other hand, if little man ends up staying with us and becoming a Langey, one part of our hearts will rejoice and be a bit relieved. But oh how we will grieve with and be heart broken on behalf of his parents. I cannot imagine the depth of sorrow that worst day would bring for them.
How very wise of Jesus to counsel us not to borrow trouble today from a day to come.
Therefore don’t worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:34
Only God knows what the coming days will hold for our little man. Today we support and advocate and snuggle and pray. And we leave tomorrows best day / worst day in His sovereign hands.
